I’m single right now

Probably be single-ish by time the Holidays rolls around too. It’s shocking for me to realize that I have not had a “singles” holiday since I’ve begun dating. I’ve seen all these posts about how to find the perfect fall/winter partner and it makes me giggle and cry into my vibrator a little.

Am I lonely?

Yes.

But if I am completely honest with myself I really don’t have the capacity for a relationship right now and to lie to myself and someone else just so I am not alone when people start carving turkeys and dropping their balls is vastly unappealing.

So my plan

Is to spend it with you and remind myself that not having a romantic love in my life is not equal to lacking love in anyway.

Please be warned that this does not mean that I won’t prey upon my coupled/tripled/quadrupled friends’ sympathy by demanding my own personal bottle of wine to stave of any potential whines during dinner type functions.

I am looking forward to being goosed in the middle of a San Francisco street by an errant wind.

I am leaning forward in anticipation of warm licks from the flames of a fireplace.

I am squirming for the hug of my winter coat and my lips are ready to part for the liquid heat of hot chocolate spiced with cinnamon.

Christmas day will find me in a fancy hotel, wrapped in a large fluffy robe, purring happily after a luxurious bubble bath. I’ll have a turkey burger with duck fat fries and surround myself with really nice moscato, high quality porn and all cheesy holiday music I can stand.

Because I’m unapologetically nostalgic…

and fucking classy like that.