I have seemed to have reached the point in my life where I find the need to have an opinion. I am extremely uncomfortable with this because I enjoy being fluid. I enjoy the ability to see both sides and mediate between two issues… but more than that I enjoy getting along with people. To…
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My Big 3 0
I just turned 30 About five years ago I told myself that by time I turned 30 I would weigh x amount of weight. It was going to be my gift to myself. Finally conforming and squeezing my body into what was “socially acceptable” But some things happened. My life changed and the only weight…
Conversations with God #2
Let go ~What Let go ~Dude I totally heard You… let go of what? Everything ~Goddammn’t What? ~That esoteric crap again?! Okay… do you want me to explain? ~Yep… you know mortal brain and all not as complex as Yours I know… kinda sucks to be you. When I say let go of everything I mean let go…
Death of Hero and Rebirth of Self
But its heart wrenching when that hero “dies” to you… when you have to change how you see them or sever yourself from them in defense. I’m angry because it did not have to be this way. There are alot of things I did wrong partially because I have never had to deal with such…
Confessions from the rabbit hole: Kink
I was recently asked the following question: “How has kink helped you in your day to day life?” It’s a question I get asked often by people who know me and some who don’t. Although its most often phrased as: “Why the hell would you do that?” and quickly followed with the business card of…
Baby Mushrooms
For those of you who don’t know we are kinda spoiled out here in California. Some people out here are actually shocked to realize that racism still exists. When I recount stories from my childhood they cringe and say ooooooommmmmgeeeeeeee seriously dude. They are rather dismayed to find that in certain areas of the United…
Year in Review
posting early because this weekend I will be too busy doing epic wildness, imbibing epic amounts achol. soaking up mega love rays like sunshine and in various states of undress in multiple compromising positions (because of a photoshoot you wonderful freakniks) A few days ago I wanted to crawl into a tub, slit…
Dehydrated
I’ve been eating fire for the past few months. Dre had noticed it. Everything has been all cayenne and chili pepper flakes, wasabi, ginger and garlic, noodles doused in unnaturally flaming crimson Sriracha Roster sauce, Louisiana Crystal Hot red dripping from a white and blue bottle burning down my throat. I’ve been eating fire to…
How I really feel
I can’t sleep My throat is closing up and it’s because I have been holding back things that I have really wanted to say. A part of me wants to be objective about this thing but I bigger part of me is saying fuck it. I really can’t afford to get sick again So I’m just gonna…
Fat on Phat Violence
Disclaimers: the following post contains multiple, continuous and flagrantly shameless use of the words: fuck, bitch, and FAT If any of these words offend you or if you’re one of my former English teachers please navigate away from this page now Dear Ungrateful Fat Bitches, WTF nobody put’s baby in a corner I expected hate…
#MammyisDead 